Tag: Christian

Through the Looking Glass

Do you stare at yourself in the mirror and wonder what’s missing?

The next time you look in the mirror, I hope you can remember, this isn’t the whole of who you are.

When you examine your reflection, wondering what could be better, wishing to be someone else, remember that you are only getting a snapshot of who you are.

Staring at old photographs, pondering old dreams, searching for something more, may you know that you were created for more, but you don’t have to become more than who you are in order to fulfill your purpose.

The mirror can lie. The mirror can boast. The mirror can tell us all sorts of things. But there is one thing the mirror cannot tell us.

It can’t tell us who we are inside.

We don’t have to be controlled by a mere reflection. A reflection that changes each day, curving and bending with each new angle or shard of glass. A reflection that isn’t at all who we were made to reflect.

We were made to reflect the One who loves perfectly, who loves us perfectly in fact. We were made to shine the light of our Savior, our Maker, our Helper.

We are made for greater things than worrying about our image. We are made for so much more than this meaningless swirl of doubts.

You, yes you, are here for a reason. So step back from the mirror or the photo or whatever is causing you to feel unworthy.

Open your love letter from God, reach out to the people who love you no matter what, and help where you are needed. There will always be a place for you. You will always be beautiful to God and to others who see you for everything you are. Nothing can ever change your purpose. Nothing. ❤

For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

1 Corinthians 13:12

Why Do We Do What We Do?

Hope for when you feel your motivations shifting.

When I first published my book, I boldly declared, “If even one person is positively impacted through my writing, then it will all be worth it.”

What a humble notion, if only truly believed. When I first published the book, I received much more support and encouragement than I could’ve imagined. But as time went on and my circle had either read it, bought it, or forgotten about it already, I felt deflated. Yes, I wanted to believe that it would be enough for me if only one life was touched. In fact, I desperately wanted to live by that.

About a month went by and I was finally told the exact story I wanted to hear: A person who read my book and was going through a hard time was encouraged. A person I didn’t even know personally, in fact. And for a while, that was enough for me.

But today, while still incredibly grateful for those who have supported my book and for the ways God has used it to encourage others, I am left asking myself, “Why did I write this book in the first place? Why do I do what I do?”

How often do you go into a situation, perhaps a job or even a relationship, with the noblest of intentions, only to end up disappointed if not given the recognition or praise you had hoped for?

Better yet, how often do you reflect on your intentions before committing to something?

We are reminded in the Bible that intentions don’t determine everything. As the parable of the two sons goes, the son who doesn’t want to do the task but gets it done anyway is the one rewarded (Matthew 21:28-32). It’s not just the intention, but the follow-through.

However, while intentions certainly aren’t everything, but they are something.

The Bible also informs us that God knows our thoughts and the state of our hearts (Psalm 94:11). Therefore, even if everyone thinks we are doing something out of the goodness of our hearts, God will know whether or not that is true. Unfortunately, because of our sinful natures, we are often tempted to not do things for the right reason.

But the best part of intentions and actions going hand-in-hand is that God can use even the things that were not done out of the right motives. He can also help us redeem ourselves and be reminded of godly motives, perhaps ones we started out with, but lost along the way.

So today as I asked myself again, “Why did I write this book?”, I was reminded of a memory.

Young Hannah, sitting all by herself in the lunchroom, wishing someone with the right motives would come talk to me. Over the course of the year, I had already been approached by the pitiers, the ones just wanting a vote (what with the student body elections coming up), and the passers-by. And in the end, I was left alone, feeling worse than before.

In that moment, I knew I could never be one of those people. All I wanted was to genuinely be there for someone else, to help them finally feel seen and not alone anymore.

And now, as I think back to the ways this book sprang up out of surprising circumstances, truly inspired by God and the lonely times He’s brought me through, I am humbly reminded that yes, even one life is worth saving. My “sacrifice”, doing what I love, but perhaps for a smaller audience than I would’ve hoped for, is really a privilege.

Today, ask yourself what your intentions are, no matter what field or stage of life you are in. Don’t feel ashamed if your intentions aren’t what they used to be; we are all given the grace to start fresh again. Be reminded that no matter what you do, God will use it for good.

But I have raised you up for this very purpose, that I might show you my power and that my name might be proclaimed in all the earth.

Exodus 9:16

To the Person Longing to Let Go of Resentment

Are you struggling with bitterness towards a person you used to love?

Dear Seeker of Peace,

Seeing their picture, watching from afar–or perhaps even up-close–and all you can feel is the deep seeded urge to find fault in them. Everything inside you churns with feelings that eat you from the inside–and now it shows.

You long for peace with yourself. They are the ones who hurt you, right? Yet somehow, your resentment feels much worse than what they did. It’s turning you into someone you don’t recognize anymore.

But what you feel isn’t hate–it’s lost love. Perhaps one-side, rejected love. Perhaps lonely, empty, disappointed love. Perhaps love that started off so strong, but fizzled or exploded and lays burnt, like your frayed expectations.

You never wanted to feel this way. Your love started off so beautiful, perhaps even reflective of the love Jesus extends for us to share. But now, it is broken. The only thing you feel is pain.

It’s pain and not hate because deep down inside, you still care very much. Somehow, seeing their name pop up in your notifications still brings a smile to your face. But even your smile feels broken. Used. Betrayed.

It’s okay to hurt.

It’s okay to cry.

It’s even okay to be upset.

But don’t let their mistake or insensitivity destroy who you are and who you are meant to be. It isn’t your fault that they hurt you, but it’s your choice to let it break you.

You are stronger than this. Strength doesn’t come in ignoring feelings; it comes from not letting those feelings control you.

We weren’t made to be bitter. We weren’t made to be vengeful. And we certainly weren’t made to hate–or whatever this is.

But we also weren’t made for seeking love from the wrong people. There is only one person who can satisfy this deep desire and make you whole again: Jesus.

His love will follow you all the days of your life and never leave you nor forsake you.

You will always be precious in His eyes.

Love,

Hannah

My flesh and my heart may fail,

But God is the strength of my heart

and my portion forever.

Psalm 73:26

Seeking a Special Day

Here’s a reminder that you can have hope for a better future.

I still remember 12/12/12 day. I was only in 5th grade at the time and we all were out for recess when the clock struck 12:12. Everyone ran around, shouting and excited for this simple reason. It was such a strangely special day, one that I realized could only happen once a century. And for some reason, that greatly bothered 10-year-old me.

Sometimes we feel like we have to hold onto special days or certain times of life that feel easier or just “better”. We bitterly lament how we will never experience such a wonderful season again.

But then it happens, a rare, special day that we never could’ve imagined. It pops up out of the blue, something we never could’ve prepared for, yet a wonderful gift indeed. Only if we keep our eyes open to the possibility of hope, that is, or else these gifts will pass us by.

Today is 2/22/22 day. Sure, 12/12/12 day may never come again, but that doesn’t mean we’ll never have a reason to celebrate a seemingly random day of the year! 10-year-old me shouldn’t have worried so much about it.

What if today you allow yourself to believe that there is a day–no, many days–in your future to look forward to? Sure, there will be hard days, days that make you feel empty and insignificant. But when you’re holding onto the hope that today might surprise you, then you can keep moving forward.

A special day will come, but until then, I hope you can at least be reminded of how special you are, and nothing can ever change that.

In a large house there are articles not only of gold and silver, but also of wood and clay; some are for special purposes and some for common use. Those who cleanse themselves from the latter will be instruments for special purposes, made holy, useful to the Master and prepared to do any good work. Flee the evil desires of youth and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart.

2 Timothy 2:20-22

To the Person Who Feels Alone

A letter to you who feel lonely tonight ❤

Dear Chosen,

You may feel anything but chosen tonight as you sit alone. Perhaps you aren’t physically alone, but you feel alone in your pain, alone in your longing for more.

The world feels like it’s passing you by; you can barely stand on your own two feet without shaking. Yet the world tells you that you have no other choice but to keep on going.

Day after day, the ache inside grows stronger until you can barely breathe. Is this it? Is this really life?

For the days when it feels like nobody cares, I want you to know that you matter.

You don’t matter because of what you do. You matter because you are human. You matter because you are still here, still willing to pursue your purpose, even if that simply means getting up in the morning.

You matter because you are fearfully and wonderfully made by Someone who loves you enough to die for you. You may not feel close to God right now. You may not even believe in God.

But let my confidence be enough for you tonight–you were made for amazing things. You are loved just the way you are and you don’t have to do anything to prove that.

In fact, you were made to be loved. Not to win metals or gain followers or invent the latest technology. Not even to be “special”. You were made to be loved by your Creator.

Yet you are not alone in feeling deserted. You have no reason to be ashamed for wondering why you’re here or doubting your purpose. Behind flocks of friends or countless accomplishments hide insecure, scared people who wonder what they are made for too.

That may bring you relief to know that you’re not alone, but I hope it does even more for you. I hope it empowers you to step out and remind someone else tonight that they aren’t alone either.

As you grow comfortable in your identity of being a beloved child of God, you will find it easier and easier to remind others of how loved they are too.

But first things first: Allowing yourself to take a moment to remember that this isn’t it. This isn’t all there is. You are made for more. More love, more respect, and more grace.

It isn’t too late for you. You are never alone. ❤

Love,

Hannah

But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.

1 Peter 2:9

To the Person on the Verge of Giving Up

A letter to those who feel rejected.

Dear Beloved,

Sometimes it feels pointless. You are there for others, and then they make you their second best, if even that. You let their words–or rather, lack of words–define who you are.

But even if you are never chosen by the people you love, remember this: The world is not full of truth. People don’t know what they’re missing. You aren’t missing out–they are. By continuing to be faithful, you will do something much greater than be “chosen” by these people.

You will leave a lasting legacy. A legacy full of love. And guess what?

You are chosen. Maybe not by the people who fill your mind and break your heart, but by the people God has led to love you. You may not know who they are yet, but they are there.

Most of all, God chose you. He chose you when He sent His son as a sacrifice. He sent Jesus as your salvation and proof of His love. God chooses you every day, even when our sin breaks His heart.

You are someone’s first choice. You are God’s first choice. Don’t let anyone make you feel otherwise.

You will always, always be loved and needed right here.

Love, Hannah ❤

And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.

You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly.

Romans 5:5-6

What Should Our First Priority Be in Ministry?

Though there should be many goals in ministry, one aspect must come first.

Though I’ve only recently become an “official” person in ministry (with a job title), I have volunteered for years and participated in and witnessed others’ ministry. And through that, as different pastors or directors have come and go, each with different missions and ideas, one key aspect has remained crucial. If it was there, it caused the church to flourish; if it was lacking, it was painfully missed.

There are many goals and values people in ministry need to have in mind, but I believe there is one thing that must come before everything else.

Our first priority in ministry is to make others feel cared about.

No fancy ways around this, no complicated language to confuse the main goal. Just simply, make others feel cared about.

Now, you might be thinking, “Caring about others is all fine and good, but what about Church doctrine and the scriptures and equipping others?”

Here is where I must clarify: We aren’t supposed to start and end with making people feel cared about, but it must be our starting place if we want any of the other elements of being in a church community to exist.

I’ve heard many stories of people who have left the Church because they didn’t feel noticed or respected or valued. I had my own experiences in youth group, where I dreaded going for fear of feeling isolated or out of place among people who were supposed to be like family.

You can be a nice person while still missing the mark on this quest for being loving. It takes intentional effort, a pure heart, and thoughtfulness to make people truly realize they belong.

Ultimately, it means embodying (in our own humanly way) the love of Christ.

Regarding the concept that our first priority of the Church should be preaching the gospel, I believe we are preaching the gospel when we demonstrate the key characteristics of the one we serve–Jesus, and giving Him all the glory. Furthermore, Christianity is based on obeying God, but the only reason we want to obey God is because of His love for us. What motive would we have for submission to His will if we didn’t have His love?

The only way to get the Church to go out into all the world and preach the good news is to infuse its members with the kind of love and compassion Jesus brought us.

This doesn’t mean we shouldn’t hold people accountable or sugarcoat the truth of God’s word. Rather, the truth is better received when coming from a loving, caring heart. When we take the time to understand God’s word for ourselves, we’ll be better at bringing its attributes into our lives.

Today, whether you serve in a church or not, you have the opportunity to show God’s love to the people in your community. This doesn’t have to be as complicated as it seems. Allow yourself to soak in Jesus’ unfailing love for you and extend that patience, forgiveness, and understanding to others. Simple acts of kindness, remembrance, and grace make all the difference.

This won’t be easy or natural at first, but over time, it will become a part of who you are. And in doing so, you become more like Jesus, which is the most wonderful thing you can ever do. ❤

Show them what you’re made of, the love I’ve been talking up in the churches. Let them see it for themselves!

2 Corinthians 8:24 (MSG)

Resting to Rise

Are you making time for rest in your life?

If you’ve ever made bread before, you know the importance of yeast and resting time. Allowing the dough to rise for a set period of time seems like the easiest part of the baking process, but for an impatient baker like me, it’s the most difficult.

And, as you may have already guessed, I’ve tried avoiding this key step. And, without fail, skipping this seemingly mundane, “unnecessary” step causes my bread to end up flat and dense, pretty much inedible. Once I finally allowed for a proper resting time, I certainly saw the difference. With all the same ingredients, my bread transformed into a fluffy, soft, and flavorful delight that was praised rather than hesitantly bitten into.

When we allow our dough to rest, we are preparing it for the process of rising and becoming what it’s meant to be. And when we allow ourselves to rest, we are preparing ourselves for the process of becoming who we’re meant to be too.

We are often shamed for taking the time to rest. But the truth is, without rest, we don’t have the energy or motivation to keep going.

Now, perhaps the reason why rest has been dubbed “lazy” or “unproductive” is because we don’t fully understand what rest looks like.

Rest isn’t putting off work or avoiding certain tasks. It doesn’t mean scrolling on our phones or falling down the rabbit hole of aimless Google searches. Rest isn’t an excuse to not follow through with our promises or mooch off of others’ hard work.

Truly wonderful, life-giving rest comes from three main components:

Listening to your body

This means getting extra sleep when you feel fatigued or eating what makes you feel nourished and energetic. Listening to your body can also mean listening to your feelings and releasing what you’ve been bottling up inside. You aren’t ignoring your body’s cries for help, but instead expressing yourself and taking care of yourself in the ways you need.

Going on REtreats

You don’t have to go far to be on a retreat, but you certainly can if that’s what refreshes you. The simple act of stepping away from your day-to-day life and taking time to be in the presence of God can give you a new perspective on life. Being intentional about your time and taking these necessary breaks will help you see things on a broader scale and have more appreciation.

Doing what you love

Taking the time to pursue a hobby or passion, even if it’s for a few minutes a day or only on the weekends, will remind you what’s wonderful about life. These activities can remind you that you are made for more than just creating or following instructions. You are made to explore and discover all that God has for you. You are made to share your talents and passions with the world!

If you want to rise up into who you are meant to be, the first step is resting. Rest in the Lord. Rest in God’s promises for you. Rest in the fact that you are exactly where you are meant to be; there is no room for comparison here, only hope for the future.

We ought always to thank God for you, brothers and sisters, and rightly so, because your faith is growing more and more, and the love all of you have for one another is increasing.

2 Thessalonians 1:3

Why Saying Goodbye to a Comfort Character Feels Real

Have you ever wondered why a piece of you feels missing after a favorite series ends?

Have you ever felt close to a fictional character? Perhaps it’s the way they talk or make you laugh or help you feel less alone. But then, when the inevitable time comes for the show or series to end, you’re left feeling empty inside, like you are losing a real friend. Whoever the character is, they make you feel seen or cared about in some strange, unexplainable way.

If you’ve shed a tear or lost a night’s sleep over a fictional character, you’re in good company. Perhaps it’s the increased accessibility to media or the fact that people feel lonelier than ever these days, but losing a character who makes you valued can be heartbreaking.

However, if you’ve shared this experience, you may have also felt silly for getting upset by someone “not real”. Yet these feelings are more valid than you might realize.

After spending the past couple years far away from loved ones and living through our screens, it’s only natural for our minds to merge our “real” relationships with our “on-screen” ones. The awesome thing about technology is how we are able to connect with people from all over the world. However, that also means many of our relationships are long distance, and our sense of reality gets altered.

Therefore, when our brains convince us that these characters are real friends, we feel like we’re experiencing a real loss. This may trigger past experiences of ending a relationship, losing a loved one, or having a source of security become unstable.

You are free to feel grief when a source of comfort is lost or a season has come to an end.

But, we don’t have to stay stuck in those feelings.

We have someone very real, despite also not being tangible, who is right here with us. And, you guessed it, Jesus is the best source of comfort.

Jesus doesn’t change. He will always be loving and powerful and patient. He will always be there for you, no matter what you are going through or what you’re feeling.

Just think about that for a moment: Jesus doesn’t ever change. We can’t even fathom that because everything–our Earth, our society, our loved ones, us–change. And that’s what makes us crave comfort or stability.

But Jesus promises that He will be faithful to the end and even after the end. He wants us to cling to Him when we feel afraid or unloved or isolated. Jesus will remind us that He is our source of courage and He paid the ultimate sacrifice to be there for us. We are never alone.

So today, don’t feel guilty for whatever you’re feeling. Instead, bring all these complicated emotions to God and allow yourself to feel comforted knowing that there will always be one thing that never changes.

Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.

Hebrews 13:8

To the Person Who Needs to Let Go

The first of many letters to my faithful readers ❤

I’m starting a new series sharing journal entires I’ve written (either to myself, God, or others) that I believe will encourage you. Each post will be dedicated to the person who I best believe will benefit from these simple words. Hopefully that person is you today. ❤

Today’s journal entry comes from last August.

Dear You Who May Relate,

Recently I’ve been sad for many reasons, but a big one is the fear of letting go. I’m scared of letting go of people. I’m scared I won’t make new friends. I’m scared of leaving my job and I’m worried I won’t find a job as meaningful. I’m scared all my relationships will change.

But today, something I’ve been trying to repeat to myself finally clicked.

If I hold too tightly to the past, I’ll miss what’s coming. If I allow the past to dictate the present and future, then things won’t get better. But if I have hope for each brand new day, then I can finally experience true joy and rest. Maybe each new day is one step closer to meeting a new friend or mentor or achieving a dream?

What if–instead of dread–I can feel excited for the new season? Letting go is not abandoning others–it’s leaving room for joy and expectation of God’s promises.

And, as Hannah six months later, I can confirm that the road to this new season is rocky, but also lined with unexpected blessings and growth opportunities.

Hope is not lost–not for either of us. God has never (and will never) leave your side. You are not alone.

Love, Hannah ❤

What no eye has seen,
    what no ear has heard,
and what no human mind has conceived”—
    the things God has prepared for those who love him.

1 Corinthians 2:9

“Letting go” does not mean you’re giving up, it just means that after all this time, you are finally beginning to see even without the closure: You are worth the new beginning.

Morgan Harper Nichols