Reflection – The Will to Wake Up

Not Too Late to Be Redeemed

As we reflect on Jesus reinstating Peter, we celebrate the redemption He offers us today.

Though Jesus visited the disciples shortly after rising from the dead, He didn’t stay with them for long. The disciples went back to their lives as fishermen, but Jesus had a greater calling for them.

Today’s Scripture:

Early in the morning, Jesus stood on the shore, but the disciples did not realize that it was Jesus.

He called out to them, “Friends, haven’t you any fish?”

“No,” they answered.

He said, “Throw your net on the right side of the boat and you will find some.” When they did, they were unable to haul the net in because of the large number of fish.

Then the disciple whom Jesus loved said to Peter, “It is the Lord!” As soon as Simon Peter heard him say, “It is the Lord,” he wrapped his outer garment around him (for he had taken it off) and jumped into the water. The other disciples followed in the boat, towing the net full of fish, for they were not far from shore, about a hundred yards. When they landed, they saw a fire of burning coals there with fish on it, and some bread.

Jesus said to them, “Bring some of the fish you have just caught.” So Simon Peter climbed back into the boat and dragged the net ashore. It was full of large fish, 153, but even with so many the net was not torn. Jesus said to them, “Come and have breakfast.” None of the disciples dared ask him, “Who are you?” They knew it was the Lord. Jesus came, took the bread and gave it to them, and did the same with the fish. This was now the third time Jesus appeared to his disciples after he was raised from the dead.

When they had finished eating, Jesus said to Simon Peter, “Simon son of John, do you love me more than these?”

“Yes, Lord,” he said, “you know that I love you.”

Jesus said, “Feed my lambs.”

Again Jesus said, “Simon son of John, do you love me?”

He answered, “Yes, Lord, you know that I love you.”

Jesus said, “Take care of my sheep.”

The third time he said to him, “Simon son of John, do you love me?”

Peter was hurt because Jesus asked him the third time, “Do you love me?” He said, “Lord, you know all things; you know that I love you.”

Jesus said, “Feed my sheep. Very truly I tell you, when you were younger you dressed yourself and went where you wanted; but when you are old you will stretch out your hands, and someone else will dress you and lead you where you do not want to go.” Jesus said this to indicate the kind of death by which Peter would glorify God. Then he said to him, “Follow me!”

Even before Jesus reinstated Peter, Peter knew he belonged to Jesus. The sheer joy he must’ve felt as he dove into the water to be as near to the Lord as possible is so beautiful.

But even more beautiful is the intentional way Jesus redeemed Peter. He asked Peter three times whether he loved Him, and even though Peter’s hurt–likely reminded of his earlier betrayal of Jesus–he’s restored through this experience. He made a firm, complete promise to love Jesus forever.

I once heard that the only real difference between Peter’s story and Judas’ story is that Peter accepted Jesus’ second chance to follow Him. I believe Jesus would’ve redeemed Judas had he lived long enough to see Jesus rise again and accepted His forgiveness. Both men denied Jesus by following their flesh rather than their faith, which we all struggle with at times. But Peter was used powerfully by God because he repented.

This doesn’t mean Peter had an easy life after Jesus’ return to Heaven. He was repeatedly punished for his faith, and even lived up to his earlier promise that he would die for his commitment to the Lord. But Peter lived fully into his God-given calling and now he is reunited with Jesus–the ultimate blessing of following Christ.

Consider Jesus’ example: God led Him into death in order to bring about eternal life. We may be lead on a similar journey that involves pain, challenges, and sacrifices. While we won’t save the world (Jesus took care of that!), God graciously allows us the opportunity to enact His will and bring healing to broken hearts that are longing for His love.

Jesus is asking you the same question He asked Peter: will you follow me?

Following Jesus means eternal relationship with Him. Not a life of comfort or ease or power, but rather peace, joy, and purpose. When we are one of His disciples, we will never have to face anything alone.

Even if you’ve been a Christian for a long time, every day we are given the choice whether or not to follow Jesus’ example.

Will we ask for His forgiveness today? Will we take the time to be with our loving Lord? Will we surrender our will to Him?

Even if you’ve said no before, it’s not too late. Today is a fresh start.

Jesus is waiting, so patiently, for us to knock on His door. He’s ready to invite us into deeper relationship with Him.

The question is, are you ready to accept His love?

I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.

-Galatians 2:20 (NIV)

Prayer:

Dear Lord,

We praise you for loving us so deeply that you desire everlasting relationship with us. Help us to never neglect our relationship with You. Strengthen us so that we may remain faithful even when storms come. You chose us, now help us choose you. We love you, Father.

Amen.

The Empty Tomb

When we place our hope in Jesus, no matter the unknowns ahead, we can have joy.

Peter and the disciples believed they had lost their Lord forever. But then a miracle happened…

Today’s Scripture:

Early on the first day of the week, while it was still dark, Mary Magdalene went to the tomb and saw that the stone had been removed from the entrance. So she came running to Simon Peter and the other disciple, the one Jesus loved, and said, “They have taken the Lord out of the tomb, and we don’t know where they have put him!”

So Peter and the other disciple started for the tomb. Both were running, but the other disciple outran Peter and reached the tomb first. He bent over and looked in at the strips of linen lying there but did not go in.

Then Simon Peter came along behind him and went straight into the tomb. He saw the strips of linen lying there, as well as the cloth that had been wrapped around Jesus’ head. The cloth was still lying in its place, separate from the linen.

Finally the other disciple, who had reached the tomb first, also went inside. He saw and believed. (They still did not understand from Scripture that Jesus had to rise from the dead.) Then the disciples went back to where they were staying.

-John 20:1-9 (NIV)

The rush of emotions these disciples must have felt! First panic that someone had stolen Jesus’ body. Then adrenaline as they (raced!?) to the tomb. (Side note: I love how John emphasizes twice that he’s faster than Peter). Perhaps as they searched the tomb, they felt a wave of relief mixed with shock as they remembered Jesus’ words: He would rise again.

And yet, it’s important to note that they still didn’t quite understand the significance of this moment or fully recognize what Jesus had done–defeated death. But even with questions, even without seeing Jesus in the flesh yet, they could have hope and joy.

As we wait for Jesus’ second coming, it’s next to impossible to fathom all His plans and purposes, especially in our broken world. But we can still have hope because we know Jesus, just as the disciples did. We have a relationship with Him, even though we can’t see Him sitting here beside us now.

When we remember who Jesus is–our loving Savior–we are offered the gift of joy and rest in Him.

Reflection Questions:

Think of a time when you were provided assurance during a trial because of your hope in the Lord. Exercising joy, rest, and hope are actually acts of faith. We’re living out the belief that Jesus is in control and has good plans for us despite our circumstances.
What questions do you have for God?
How might you act in faith today?

Prayer:

Dear Lord,

Thank you for sending Jesus to die for our sins. We praise you because you have conquered death and offer us new life in You. Help us to live out our faith and always hold onto our hope in You.

Amen.

Into the Garden

On the night of Jesus’ betrayal, Jesus longed for support from His disciples. While they gave into their flesh rather than faith, there was still hope for them–and for us today–to return to Jesus.

On the night when Jesus was betrayed, we often remember Judas, who was led by his greedy heart to bring the soldiers straight to Jesus. But Judas wasn’t the only one who abandoned Jesus in His time of need that night.

During the Last Supper, Jesus shared with His disciples what would happen, yet they still weren’t ready to believe. In his typical fashion, Peter boldly declared that he was willing to die for Jesus, but Jesus warned him that he would disown Him that very night.

Today’s Scripture:

Then Jesus told them, “This very night you will all fall away on account of me, for it is written: ‘I will strike the shepherd, and the sheep of the flock will be scattered.’ But after I have risen, I will go ahead of you into Galilee.”

Peter replied, “Even if all fall away on account of you, I never will.”

“Truly I tell you,” Jesus answered, “this very night, before the rooster crows, you will disown me three times.”

But Peter declared, “Even if I have to die with you, I will never disown you.” And all the other disciples said the same.

-Matthew 26:32 (NIV)

Then Jesus went with his disciples to a place called Gethsemane, and he said to them, “Sit here while I go over there and pray.”

He took Peter and the two sons of Zebedee along with him, and he began to be sorrowful and troubled. Then he said to them, “My soul is overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death. Stay here and keep watch with me.”

Going a little farther, he fell with his face to the ground and prayed, “My father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will.”

Then he returned to his disciples and found them sleeping.

“Couldn’t you men keep watch with me for one hour?” he asked Peter. “Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.”

-Matthew 26:36-41 (NIV)

Jesus is the Son of God, yet He chooses relationship with us. He didn’t need the disciples to stay awake and pray. God’s will was still done that night. Yet Jesus longed for His disciples, for Peter, to be a friend to Him as He prepared to sacrifice everything to break the barrier between God and man.

Perhaps if Peter had prayed beside Jesus, he wouldn’t have tried to protect Jesus by slicing off a guard’s ear moments later. He might’ve recognized that this was what God was calling Jesus to do. Maybe God would’ve given Peter the courage to not disown Jesus when his faith was put on trial.

But instead, Peter gave into his fleshly desire to sleep–and then later to act on his own instincts rather than surrender to God’s will–which caused him to do exactly the opposite of what he promised Jesus earlier.

I can only imagine the heartbreak Peter experienced as he witnessed his Lord brought away in chains. Perhaps he thought the fight was over, that they had lost. Perhaps he felt a tug-of-war in his heart between faithfulness to his friend and the natural desire to stay safe.

The good news is, Peter later receives a second chance, as do we when we betray Jesus by seeking fulfillment from earthly desires rather than our relationship with Him.

The question is, are you ready to surrender to His love, even when it means sacrificing your comfort zone?

Reflection Questions:

Think about a time when you tried to handle a situation on your own, without seeking God’s help.
How might have your mindset been different had you relied on God’s strength rather than your own?
What do you turn to for fulfillment in your life?
How do God’s promises differ from what the world promises? (I’d recommend cracking open your Bible for this one, especially focusing on Jesus’ teachings in the gospels!)

Prayer:

Dear Lord,

Thank you for offering us chance after chance to be in relationship with you. Even though our eyes wander, help us always turn back to you. We’re sorry for the ways we have rejected you and ask for your forgiveness. Thank you for your everlasting love and grace.

Amen.

Walking Through Holy Week in Peter’s Sandals

Let’s reflect on Jesus’ final days leading up to Easter, focusing on Peter’s passionate yet often misguided devotion that reveals his struggle between earthly concerns and Jesus’ humble sacrifice.

As we reflect on and celebrate the gift of Jesus’ sacrificial love this week, let’s journey through the days leading up to His death and resurrection. There are many characters and perspectives shared throughout the gospels, so let’s hone in on one of Jesus’ disciples, a passionate and out-spoken man named Peter.

A Little Backstory

Peter’s known for being the first to declare Jesus is the Messiah (Matthew 16:16).
But also he made bold statements that Jesus rebuked (Matt. 16:22-23).
Jesus selected a few of His disciples to whom to show His full glory on the Mount of Transfiguration, and Peter was one of those blessed individuals (Matt. 17:1).
Peter is one of the most named disciples in the gospels to interact with Jesus, answering His questions and participating in His ministry.

Today’s Scripture:

He came to Simon Peter, who said to him, “Lord, are you going to wash my feet?”

Jesus replied, “You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand.”

“No,” said Peter, “you shall never wash my feet.”

Jesus answered, “Unless I wash you, you have no part with me.”

“Then, Lord,” Simon Peter replied, “not just my feet but my hands and head as well!”

-Matthew 13:6-9 (NIV)

I love this interaction between Peter and Jesus because it shows the deep love they have for one another. Of course, Jesus’ love is perfect while Peter still doesn’t quite understand what’s going on. But it’s clear even when Peter addresses Jesus as “Lord” that he wants to respect and honor Him.

Peter felt it wasn’t right for his teacher–much less his Lord–to take on the form of a servant and wash his stinky, dirty feet. He didn’t understand that this action was a metaphor for Jesus accepting the burden of our filthy sin, dying on the cross, and washing us clean with the sacrifice of His life.

As we will continue to witness Peter and Jesus’ interactions throughout Holy Week, Peter struggles to fathom the idea of a humble God when his understanding of the Messiah was likely a warrior king.

In fact, the first time Peter is rebuked, it was because he refused to accept the price Jesus was willing to pay in order to save us from our sins.

From that time on Jesus began to explain to his disciples that he must go to Jerusalem and suffer many things at the hands of the elders, the chief priests and the teachers of the law, and that he must be killed and on the third day be raised to life.

²²Peter took him aside and began to rebuke him. “Never, Lord!” he said. “This shall never happen to you!”

²³Jesus turned and said to Peter, “Get behind me, Satan! You are a stumbling block to me; you do not have in mind the concerns of God, but merely human concerns.”

-Matthew 16:21-23

Even though Peter’s concern for Jesus likely came out of a place of love and admiration, he wasn’t willing to surrender to God’s will because the cost felt too great. Peter was fixated on fleeting, earthly things rather than considering that God had a greater plan.

Reflection Questions:

Think back to a time when God might’ve been saying to you, “You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand.”
What might you need to surrender in order to trust God with the unknown?
What worries or burdens are you carrying today?
How might fixing your eyes on Jesus and remembering that God is in control help you to have peace, even through the storms of life?

Prayer:

Dear Lord,

Thank you for taking on the form of a humble servant and washing us clean of our sins. We are in need of you each day, for when we are weak, then you are strong. Help us to surrender our earthly desires, dreams, and fears to you, exchanging them for your peace.

Amen.

Life Update and Encouragement :)

He who promised is faithful ❤

Hey everyone!

I don’t know about you, but 2024 has been a whirlwind year thus far. Summer is often a great time to reflect on the past few months and consider the future with hope.

Thank you so much for sticking with me through this year! We’ve undergone some exciting changes, like finally getting our own domain (!!), adding a features section, and creating an inspirational video.

Personally, 2024 has been a year of transition. In June, I graduated college with my B.A. in Professional and Creative Writing. Leading up to that, I left one of my part-time jobs, gained more leadership responsibilities in my current job, lost a grandparent, found a new church, and experienced many relational highs and lows. It’s crazy how events and situations that carry such weight can be summarized in a few mere words!

On top of that, I’ve been asking God how He wants me to move forward in life, particularly with writing. I believe He’s led me to join a writing program that will equip me to complete longer, high quality projects in a faith-based environment. I’m excited to begin this program next month, though I admit I’ve been wrestling with anxiety over what comes after that.

Above all, God’s been gently reminding me that I need to surrender to His will. That’s a concept we don’t like in a very self-sufficient, independent society. We are comfortable when we feel like we have control.

But if I’ve learned anything over the course of my life, it’s that we are not in control. I am not in control. And maybe that’s for the best.

If you are struggling with this concept, remember the things you really wanted at earlier stages of your life, maybe even just a few years ago.

If your desires came into fruition, how would your life be different now?

What would you have missed out on if you had gotten what you wanted?

Often, because we can’t see the big picture, our desires aren’t in alignment with what’s best for us. Even when we make mistakes and chase harmful desires, we are not powerful enough to thwart God’s plan for us. When we turn to Him and ask for help, we will start to see how He can redeem any situation.

And when we are following Him, we will be safest of all.

That doesn’t mean we won’t experience pain and hardship, but it does mean we have peace knowing we are on the right path, protected by our Shepherd. We are not walking the path of life alone.

As I head into this next season of life, I will discern how God wants to shape The Will to Wake Up. Even if posts continue to be irregular (I’m so sorry!) or the formatting shifts a bit, I hope you will continue to be part of this community.

Thank you for your patience, support, and encouragement! God bless you. ❤

Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for He who promised is faithful. And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds, not giving up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but encouraging each other–and all the more as you see the Day approaching.

– Hebrews 10:23-25 (NIV)

Reflection Questions:

What is one way you’ve needed to trust God in 2024?
What is something you’ve learned through a recent hardship?
Who is someone you’ve grown closer to this year?
What is an unexpected blessing you’ve experienced recently?
What do you hope for in the coming months?

It Takes Courage to Be Still

When was the last time you were still before God?

I’ve been watching a lot of action movies lately–adrenaline rushing, heart pounding, will they make it!? The main character, usually a fugitive, is always running, jumping, flying. Doing whatever it takes to make it out alive.

Thankfully, most of us aren’t in situations that require fake identities and epic car chases. But we often associate bravery with diving head over heals into situations and never catching a breath. How often do these action heroes stop for a bite to eat, a nap, or even a bathroom break?

While unnecessary for the script, taking time to pause and reflect are essential for us to live fully into our purposes.

Sometimes, being willing to be silent and still takes more courage than rushing through life. It means feeling uncomfortable emotions, dealing with difficult thoughts, and reflecting on how to grow.

Being still requires being honest. You don’t have anything distracting you from what you know to be true.

These truths can sound like: “I am a kind person, but today I hurt someone”, or “Something I said was uncharacteristic for me and didn’t make someone feel loved”. They can even be: “I am human, which means I make mistakes”, or “This person isn’t healthy for me and I need to step back”.

These truths can also sound like: “I am dearly loved by God”, “I am His treasured creation”, and “No matter what, I will always have value”.

Truths can be wrapped up in lies that tell us that we aren’t good enough because we made a mistake or we let someone down. We realize that these words are harmful, and then we lose sight of what even is the truth. The truth is that we make mistakes and we aren’t perfect–we need to own that and apologize. But we are not defined by our mistakes. We are defined by God, who calls us His masterpieces.

Today, I encourage you to take a moment to be still. No music, no other people, no screens. Just sitting in silence and wading through your thoughts until the truth rings out.

Perhaps there is a person you need to talk to who will help make things right. Perhaps you need a self-care day and a reminder that you are worthy of it. Perhaps it’s just a simple moment to thank God for the gift of life.

Embrace the discomfort of stillness and remember that the more you cherish quiet rather than avoid it, the easier it will be to rest in God’s presence.

Jesus was in the stern, sleeping on a cushion. The disciples woke him and said to him, “Teacher, don’t you care if we drown?”

He got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, “Quiet! Be still!” Then the wind died down and it was completely calm.

He said to his disciples, “Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?”
Mark 4:38-40

Moving Forward While Honoring the Past

Is it difficult to find the balance between appreciating the past while moving forward?

Yesterday, I glanced out the window and noticed my next-door neighbors’ old playhouse. There it stood, stained with permanent purple handprints, the swings barely clinging onto the post, and cobwebs filling the room that used to serve as the kitchen.

This playhouse provided a place for adventure, friendship, and community. Alas, its time has come to an end. But does that make it an unworthy investment?

We are so often focused on the future that we work ourselves up over whether or not we wasted time in the past. Why didn’t we do more extracurriculars rather than hang out with friends? Why didn’t we work more hours rather than explore new hobbies? Why did we make that purchase that didn’t last forever?

Even worse, we begin to fret about regret. But what may be unusable or unappreciated now can still have value in reflection. And that includes relationships.

Do you ever beat yourself up over spending time with someone who you don’t talk to anymore? Maybe this person won’t ever have the same significance they once had in your life, but they were there to teach you something valuable.

Instead of looking back at the past with doubts and alarm, perhaps today you can reframe your perspective and appreciate all that your growth has taught you. All these people and experiences and even possessions have brought you to the place you are today. But none of it has any value without God.

Thanks to God, we don’t have to have regrets. We know that even when we mess up or make a questionable choice, God will use it to bring us closer to Him. We just have to keep our hearts open to the possibility that it isn’t too late for us.

If you are caught in confusion, overwhelmed by mistakes or lack of closure, call out. to God for insight. Peace is one of the many gifts He willingly gives us.

You are not a failure when your thoughts linger on a place that’s no longer here or a person who doesn’t occupy your time anymore. But the past is not a place to live; rather, it’s a place to reflect in before moving forward with renewed courage and hope.

You have made it through all the storms that have come your way so far. You will be able to do it again. ❤

My son, if you accept my words
    and store up my commands within you,
²turning your ear to wisdom
    and applying your heart to understanding—
³indeed, if you call out for insight
    and cry aloud for understanding,
⁴and if you look for it as for silver
    and search for it as for hidden treasure,
⁵then you will understand the fear of the Lord
    and find the knowledge of God.
⁶For the Lord gives wisdom;
    from his mouth come knowledge and understanding.
Proverbs 2:1-6