Tag: Purpose

Stillness and Snowflakes

You are an unrepeatable miracle of God.

You’ve likely heard the comparison of people to snowflakes. We’re unique individuals despite sharing the same qualities with one another that make us human. No two persons are the same.

Yet it’s so easy to look around and feel like the odd one out, the one who just isn’t as worthy or valuable as everyone else.

When’s the last time you stared up into the sky and watched the snow fall around you? Shivering as little flakes dust your eyelashes, causing you to blink in delight.

Perhaps you live somewhere without snow, so you’ve never had the opportunity. Or maybe snow is such a common commodity that you have forgotten what it’s like to stand in wonder.

Today, we were driving through thick, fluffy flakes on our way home from church. As we went along, the snow appeared as nonstop lines connecting the heavens to the ground, simple white streaks. But when we stopped at a red light, I stuck my head out the window and everything froze.

Every single unique snowflake fell delicately at its own pace, one after another. There was beauty because there were so many of them. Yet each one fluttered and flew in full acknowledgement of its own importance.

It took hitting the breaks to notice. To care. To ponder.

Whether or not you have snow to admire, perhaps taking a pause today will allow you to reflect on how God has showed up for you in the past and equipped you to face each day’s challenges. The emptiness in your heart will slowly mend as you remember those who did love you rather than those who didn’t take the time to understand you.

As an old professor once told us every class, you are an unrepeatable, irreplaceable miracle of God. Let the truth of those words sink into your heart today.<3

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

Psalm 139:14

You Won’t Miss What’s Meant for You

Are you tired of trying to figure out what God’s will is for your life?

God’s will. Two scary words for anyone in a season of waiting, transition, or decision-making.

Every time I’ve made a life decision over the past several years, I’ve been asked, “Is this choice within God’s will?”.

Usually it comes after I’ve asked for advice, when I’m not sure what is the “right” decision. In these moments of overwhelm and confusion, being thrown this additional component makes the process even more daunting.

Perhaps you’ve been in that situation. You really want to please God with your life, use your gifts for His glory, and live with purpose. But…the will of God can seem so broad and significant that even thinking about it results in a headache.

Here’s the thing: We have no control over God’s will. It will happen regardless of what decision we make. One yes or no isn’t going to ruin God’s plan for our lives.

This news might be a relief, or it might be frustrating to hear. We’d like to think we have some sort of handle on what happens to us, right?

I was rereading Luke 1 today, and a new detail caught my eye. For those of you unfamiliar with the beginning of the Christmas story, it starts off with Zechariah the priest in the temple receiving a message from the angel Gabriel announcing the promise of Zechariah’s son, John the Baptist.

However, what I never noticed before was this detail:

Once when Zechariah’s division was on duty and he was serving as priest before God, he was chosen by lot, according to the custom of the priesthood, to go into the temple of the Lord and burn incense. 

Luke 1:8-9 (added italics)

It was beyond Zechariah’s control to be in the temple that day to receive that message at that specific time, yet God orchestrated it in a way to uniquely speak to Zechariah. Even when Zechariah didn’t believe the angel (and received the consequence of losing his voice for nine months), God’s will was done. No matter what, God knew He wanted to use Zechariah and his wife, Elizabeth, for the key role of raising up an important leader.

No person, thought, fear, or feeling could remove God’s divine purpose from this family.

God’s will isn’t supposed to be a scary thing that we have to figure out. By prioritizing our relationship with Him and trusting Him with every detail of our lives, we will be able to witness God working even in the most troubling of circumstances. Most of all, as we grow to become more like Him, it will be easier for us to understand how to react when difficult situations arise.

But through it all, even when we make mistakes, God will use you and your special gifts no matter what. He will never leave you alone. ❤

But the angel said to him: “Do not be afraid, Zechariah; your prayer has been heard. Your wife Elizabeth will bear you a son, and you are to call him John. He will be a joy and delight to you, and many will rejoice because of his birth.”

Luke 1:13-14

Every Person Plays a Part

Your role in this world is vital.

If you’ve ever been in a school play or seen one of the million Disney movies about musicals, you’ve surely heard the phrase, “There are no small parts, just small actors.” Cliché, and yet a glimmer of hope for anyone who hasn’t gotten the staring role.

I was writing Christmas Sunday School curriculum today, and one lesson focuses on Joseph, Jesus’ earthly father. Now, Joseph’s role might feel redundant considering Jesus already has God the Father. Mary is often the one who gets the spotlight in this story, and for good reason, considering the sacrifice, courage, and humility she displayed. Yet there’s something rather comforting about Joseph’s involvement in this pivotal moment in history.

God didn’t have to include Joseph in Jesus’ arrival, yet God chose to include Joseph for many reasons, one of them being that Joseph provides an example for us as to how to be purposeful outside the spotlight.

Joseph took care of Jesus’ earthly needs. He remained loyal to Mary when others likely turned against their family. He listened when God spoke to him and protected his family from danger. He never slay dragons or laid down his life in a dramatic way, yet God’s story wouldn’t be complete without him.

It’s easy to feel like our roles are minimal, especially if we spend most of our time encouraging others with more “exciting” purposes. Yet God has created each one of us uniquely in order to fulfill equally important roles intended for us.

You have an important part to play in the continuation of God’s great story for the world. No matter how others have made you feel, you are valuable, vital, and valiant as you continue to pursue God.

But God has put the body together, giving greater honor to the parts that lacked it, so that there should be no division in the body, but that its parts should have equal concern for each other. 

1 Corinthians 12:24-25

Fading Into Glory

Encouragement when the journey is difficult. ❤

After making a full 360 around my room, I determined a full redecoration process was in store for these dingy walls. I grimaced as I peeled off old drawings, photos, and cutouts.

While deciding what could be salvaged, I realized everything framed with construction paper had become faded. Through heavy exposure to the sunlight, I couldn’t tell a red paper from a green. They all were stripped down to their original color.

Sometimes, it feels like our transformation process is a little like this. We were created to be natural and authentic images of God, and yet the world dips us in distinguishing colors that separate us into groups, even when we’re all molded after the same Creator.

As we learn to follow Jesus, the ultimate Light, we are stripped back down to who we are meant to be. This process can be messy and ugly and broken. Many people won’t understand why we choose to go through it when we may outwardly appear more beautiful or comfortable without changing.

And yet change, as painful as it is, must happen if we want to be anything like Christ. We physically cannot grow without setting aside our own humanly inclinations in order to have a trusting relationship with Him.

Today, you may be feeling discouraged, wondering if you will ever blossom into your purpose or become like Jesus. You are not a failure for feeling behind or making mistakes–that’s all part of the process. Jesus never said that following Him would be easy, but He did promise that you will never do it alone. ❤

{Jesus said} “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”

John 16:33

You are Not Forgotten

No matter how you feel today, you are not alone.

I stood at the edge of the curb, rain dripping down my back, one earbud hanging loose over my shoulder. Angry, confused, wondering what was wrong with me.

And then soft words, as though an angel were singing in my ear, flowed through my remaining earbud:

You are not hidden
There’s never been a moment
You were forgotten.

Lauren Daigle, “Rescue”

That was four years ago, and yet her words never cease to haunt me. In the most comforting way possible, of course. But it’s funny how someone’s simple words can reach into your soul and pull something out that you never thought possible.

I’ve come to notice a trend in theology classes: they always start with Genesis. No surprise there. But this year, after reading these chapters countless times, my professor brought something new to light.

The first time we hear God speak to Adam and Eve, He asks, “Where are you?”. And this question, my professor remarked, is what God continues to ask humanity throughout history. Even now, each day, God might ask this of us.

It’s weird how difficult it is to answer that question. I mean, there’s the simple answer, “I’m at ___ address”, or even if you were to take it metaphorically, “I’m at peace in my life right now”.

Yet I don’t think I really had an answer until I didn’t know where I was geographically.

I was sitting in my room–which had only been “mine” for a few days–in Cambridge, overlooking a river full of punting boats and swans. I couldn’t tell you where to find me or how to get anywhere other than the local grocery store from there. And yet, as I took a deep, steady breath, I finally knew where I was. I wasn’t in hiding anymore.

Last week, I sat alone on the grass on my university’s campus watching the bright yellow leaves float down around me. This campus has engulfed me in loneliness, gripped me with terror, and coated me with shame. And yet, I could finally sit comfortably where anyone could see me and feel well.

God doesn’t ask Where are you because He wants to “get us” for our sin or pile on guilt. God asks because He wants to be in relationship with us, and we can’t have a loving, open relationship without being brave enough to present our full selves. To come out of hiding. To be honest about how we truly feel and what we’ve become.

Ultimately, God asks this of us because He never forgets us. He remembers us. Through the tears that came down with the thunder and lightning roaring inside to the quiet moments where no one knew we were hurting.

God remembers us in the joyful moments, the excitement that no one else can truly understand but Him. In the meaningful connections, the smile after the conversation is long since over, the memory that keeps us alive.

While we’ll always be remembered by God, we can’t feel remembered until we step into the light and allow God’s love to cover any inadequacies we still face.

Today, I hope you can believe that you are not forgotten. God loves you so much and He will never let you go.

I will remember my covenant between me and you and all living creatures of every kind. Never again will the waters become a flood to destroy all life.

Genesis 9:15

The Arch of God’s Love

Life is more than a cycle.

So often, life can just feel like a cycle.

Brush, rinse, wash, repeat. Meet-cute, fall in love, break up, repeat. Feel lonely, make friends, get heartbroken, repeat.

Even life itself: Born, struggle, succeed, decline, die, onto the next.

But is that really life?

For the past few years, I’ve been caught up seeing life as a cycle. It’s more draining making friends after knowing how quickly you can lose them. It’s harder to take initiative after being rejected.

Perhaps you can relate. The worst is when you pray, God answers the prayer, and then the thing you feared happens anyway. False hope cuts deeper than no hope at all.

But maybe what we’re feeling isn’t false hope. Maybe we have our hope placed in the outcome more than in who gives us hope.

This week, I was reminded of the story of Elijah and the widow. He meets the widow and her son during a drought when they are preparing their last meal in anticipation of their greatest fear: death. But miraculously, God provides them with enough food to survive!

But then…her son dies anyway.

Arguably, the widow is distressed. Why would God save them just to have her son die shortly after? He’s all she has, or so she thinks. What good is life without him? And what kind of God would allow this?

When we have a pressing need, it’s easy to become obsessed with it. Perhaps it’s a person in our lives who seems like a miracle, just to be taken away from us. Or maybe it’s an opportunity that would bring so much joy, only to fall through. It could even be a physical need, such as a place to live, food on the table, or enough money to make it through the month.

All these things that feel like necessities. That are necessities when living in this world.

When the woman cries out to God, He hears her. Through Elijah, God is able to bring her son back to life. And through this heart-wrenching experience, she can finally proclaim, “Now I know that you (Elijah) are a man of God and that the word of the Lord from your mouth is the truth” (1 Kings 17:24).

Now. Now I can see. Now I know that You hear me.

It took not a cycle of God’s love coming and going. It took an arch of belief. Starting off helpless, going on a journey towards trusting God fully, and ending with the knowledge that God loves without fail.

Maybe the “son” in your story has already died. Maybe it feels like God was too late.

But I promise that God is using everything in your life to bring you back to His love. Through hardship and heartache, God is right there, protecting you from things you couldn’t even imagine.

God wants you to turn to Him when you feel yourself sinking in despair, loneliness, or confusion. He doesn’t want you to be alone. Through it all, you will never be alone. ❤

For none of us lives for ourselves alone, and none of us dies for ourselves alone. If we live, we live for the Lord; and if we die, we die for the Lord. So, whether we live or die, we belong to the Lord.

Romans 14:7-8

To the Wanderer

Not all who wander are lost, and perhaps those are who God enjoys using.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart
    and lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways submit to him,
    and he will make your paths straight (Proverbs 3:5-6).

Printed on mugs and plaques, recited in every Sunday School class, and written in the most encouraging of cards, this Proverb is unforgettable.

And yet, so many times I’ve collapsed at my desk, head in my hands, racking my brain as to why I’ve trusted and trusted and trusted…and yet I’m still wandering.

Last night, I told a group of kids at my church the story of Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego and the blazing furnace, when they trusted God even though they were on the brink of losing their lives. Kids being, well, kids, immediately raced through their own version of the story faster than you could say “Nebuchadnezzer” and were ready to jump up and play games.

But holding them in the moment, I asked, “How do you think they felt when they were about to be sent into the furnace?”

I anticipated reactions such as “scared”, “terrified”, and “worried”.

Instead, I got: “They were okay! They were happy!”

So then I went off-script and asked, “How would you feel if you were in this situation?”

Again, the answers were instantaneous: “Scared! Horrified! Soooo nervous!”

This group of kids have been through a pandemic, breathed in smoke fumes every summer they can remember, and have had their share of personal battles, all before the age of ten. Each one has their own furnace.

And yet, as we later bowed our heads and prayed to the same God who Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego trusted, none of us could confidently say we wouldn’t be shaking in our bones standing in front of the pipping hot flames awaiting our potential doom.

Here’s the thing: the Bible never says these men weren’t nervous. They outright admit that God may not “save” them (in the physical sense) from this fire. But they trusted that no matter what would happen, they knew God would take care of them.

Ironically, or possibly not, earlier yesterday one of my professors told us something my mind is still trying to grasp: “We are best used by God when we are wandering. Not lost, but not with a clear path ahead of us.”

When I picture that promised “straight path”, I must confess that I envision a life of smooth relationships, clear calling, and free from doubt. But that’s not what God is promising at all.

Trusting God is less about getting your life put together perfectly and more about feeling God’s presence. Throughout the Bible, God makes many promises to His chosen people, but the biggest one is the promise of His presence in their lives. And through that presence, they are secured the chance to be a “blessing to all nations” (Genesis 12:3).

Anyone who trusts God and wants to do His will can also be part of this covenant. God chose you before you were born to live out an incredible purpose. To be a blessing to everyone put in your life.

That ache in your heart for the neglected, that strange surge of care for a stranger, that desire to make things right–those are all passions given to you by the Holy Spirit. Yet knowing how to respond to the needs of the world in a Christlike manner can only happen after getting to know Christ for yourself.

Don’t worry about trusting God “enough”. Just focus on the ways you can hand God each detail of your life, one day at a time, until it becomes so natural that you can’t think of life the same way again.

Those who know your name trust in you, for you, Lord, have never forsaken those who seek you.

Psalm 9:10

You Are Worth The Cost

You matter to God ❤

It’s just a paper plate.

I kept trying to convince myself of that as I walked in the door last night after a long evening of leading children’s programming at church. Still recovering from jet lag and a full day of classes, I funneled the remnants of my energy into spending time with the kids. Yet, of course, it was completely worth it after reflecting on their thoughtful answers, seeing their smiling faces, and most all, hearing their laughter!

Though the highlight of the night came at the end, when a sweet little girl came up and handed me a plate. It wasn’t just an old plate–it was adorned with multicolored paint splatters surrounding the words: “I ❤ you”.

A smile immediately illuminated my face as I gave her a quick squeeze and a “thank you” that couldn’t have possibly conveyed how much it meant to me.

And then in the hubbub of parents picking up their children and cleaning the giant mess of paint, the plate was somehow lost in the mix. It wasn’t until I got home that I realized my special gift was missing.

I tore apart my bags, just to make sure, though I knew deep down that it was somewhere in the locked up building.

It’s not worth driving all the way back and setting off the alarms, I reminded myself. But somehow, it almost felt worth it.

How funny it is that something as simple as a paper plate can have so much value once personalized. You might have something similar at home: what was once a piece of scratch paper is now a treasured love note; an old receipt is the reminder of easier days; a dusty photo is the last memory of a beloved person.

And to God, we were once just dust particles, and now we are worth the ultimate sacrifice. God would give up everything–in fact, He did!–just to be with us. As the Good Shepherd, Jesus would go searching high and low to make sure each of us are still with Him. He would go back for that one paper plate, no matter the cost or humiliation or time. We are worth it to Him.

Today, I hope you can allow yourself to believe that you are a valuable, beloved creation that has an extraordinary purpose. When God made you, He knew exactly what He was doing. You can’t mess up God’s plan for you. And even when things feel all out of alignment, God’s love for you will never fail. ❤

“I [Jesus] have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.

 I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep.”

John 10:10-11

Making Room for Rest

What does rest look like for you in this stage of life?

I have just returned from my time abroad! I am thankful for your patience as this site took a break, and I look forward to sharing all that God taught me during my trip over the next few weeks!

Heading into this trip, I distracted myself with many things. I was working multiple jobs, starting various creative projects, and never letting myself take a moment to realize what was happening.

Forcing myself to feel productive and purposeful left me feeling drained and overwhelmed. Actions meant to prevent me from harm ended up postponing the deeper healing I needed.

But thankfully God gave me the opportunity to step out of my current reality and objectively look at my life. Through the four weeks I was away, rest had to take a different form.

Often it was simply a necessity after running around a Tube station in search of the right train or a particularly intense class session. There was no other way to move forward without taking a breather first.

Ultimately, I realized more deeply than I ever had before that rest needs to be a priority. It may feel like laziness or procrastination, but making room for rest in life is the only way to do things well. To live fully into the purpose God has created us for.

And then, of course, the day after I get home the one thing I haven’t checked off on my to-do list is “rest”.

But rest can’t be checked off. Rather, it needs to be a practice. Pausing before reaching for our devices to soak in the moment and regroup. Praying and reading the Bible before starting or ending the day. Taking a walk before starting a task.

Rest looks different in each season, but it’s vital no matter where you are in life. I hope you can love yourself enough to give yourself the chance to rest and bring your best self to the table. You are worth it. ❤


Then, because so many people were coming and going that they did not even have a chance to eat, Jesus said to them, “Come with me by yourselves to a quiet place and get some rest.”

Mark 6:31

Worth the Wait

Where is God amidst tragedy, heartbreak, and most of all, waiting?

You don’t have to wait for God’s plan.

Yep, you heard me right. Why? Because God’s plan isn’t something you have to wait around aimlessly for–it’s already happening right now.

There are many beautiful quotes about waiting on God and how we can’t waste the waiting. I’ve even posted about not being unproductive or inattentive to God’s leading during seasons that feel slow or mundane. But here’s the thing–we aren’t waiting on God’s plan to start, each day is proof that God is weaving His story in every season of our lives.

It may feel like waiting as you sit in a hospital room, anticipating your results. When you watch everyone else achieve their dreams, feeling one step behind. When you wonder how your life could possibly end up purposeful and beautiful amidst tragedy or heartbreak. When the world is dark and no light seems to be shining through.

Where is God in all this?

God is right here, my friend. He is within every single detail. That chance encounter with a person who needs your encouraging smile. That unexpected opportunity that leads you down a road towards healing. That wrong turn that ends up bringing you to all the right places.

God’s plan is worth trusting. We could never comprehend all the knowledge He has about us, the world, and the future. It’s a gift to be able to leave it all in His hands.

But we don’t have to wait to begin living. Even when things aren’t going in the direction that feels “successful” or “purposeful”, you are still becoming the person you have been made to be, one step at a time. You are still learning and growing, especially once you look for the ways God is speaking to you.

On the days when it feels like nothing is happening and you are impatient about understanding where your life with lead, remember that each moment is an opportunity to bring light into the world. One thoughtful message, one act of kindness, one comforting Bible verse at a time. They all matter.

Most of all, you matter. God knows that better than anyone.

As a prisoner for the Lord, then, I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received.

Ephesians 4:1