Fixing What is Broken is Hard — and It’s Worth It

We all have once choice: healing or remaining in our brokenness. Which will you choose today?

When we notice our cracks, our emptiness, and our voids, we have one choice. Will we choose healing or will we choose to remain in our brokenness?

Healing seems like the obvious answer. The word itself brings to mind waves lapping against smooth sand and the rushing sound of water washing us clean. Healing sounds peaceful, and there is a glorious aspect of peace in healing.

But healing is also hard work. It requires us to be honest with ourselves about our brokenness. We often have apologies and reparations to make. And healing isn’t a linear process.

The latter has been the hardest for me to grasp recently. My healing journey began five years ago when I made the decision to surrender my brokenness to Jesus and beg for His help. He listened to me, as He always does, and has helped me grow and let go and discover more of Him since.

There have been fleeting moments of such strong peace that tempt me to wonder if my healing journey is over. Perhaps I am finally the person I have wanted to become.

And then an incident occurs or an unhealthy emotion rises up, and I find myself once again at the mercy of Jesus on account of my deep brokenness.

The hardest part about returning to that place is the sense of failure that accompanies this vulnerable posture. Sitting there in the darkness, I fight doubts over whether or not I’ll ever heal.

And the truth is, we aren’t able to experience complete healing on this side of Heaven because we live in a broken world. We may fully repair one crack just to have a dent appear.

Does that mean healing isn’t worth it?

Absolutely not. Healing is a vital part of sanctification, which is the process we undergo on earth where God helps us become more holy as we grow closer to Him.

While healing isn’t easy, the process itself allows us to trust God on a deeper level and let go of our pride and self-sufficiency. This can deepen our relationships with others because we recognize our need for them, too.

When we arrive at the feet of Jesus in humble submission, He doesn’t shame us. He welcomes us with loving arms. It is a courageous act — not an act of failure — to return to Jesus and ask for His healing. We are often rewarded with His comfort and peace, even if our external (or internal) circumstances are still quite messy.

Another aspect of healing that makes it difficult is the hope it requires. We must believe that we are worth the work it takes to heal. You may not feel worth it right now, and that’s okay.

There is someone who believes you are worth it: Jesus. He was willing to die and rise again to allow you the opportunity not only to experience healing on earth, but to heal fully in Heaven.

I also believe you are worth it. There are others in your life, even if you don’t realize it now, who love you and want you to embrace your God-given identity as a beloved child of the Most High King. None of the lies you believe about yourself, or that have been inflicted upon you by others, are strong enough to remove your identity in Christ.

Call out to God and trust that He hears you. Ask Him who in your life can support you during this time. Then reach out to them and keep your heart open to healing.

You will always be loved. You do not have to embark on this healing journey alone.

When the apostles returned, they reported to Jesus what they had done. Then he took them with him and they withdrew by themselves to a town called Bethsaida, but the crowds learned about it and followed him. He welcomed them and spoke to them about the kingdom of God, and healed those who needed healing.

Luke 9:10-11

And a little bonus Marvel advice 😉 I hope this little scene encourages you as it did me last night:

Loki Season 2 Clip

Honoring Easter Every Day

Practical ways you can cling onto the gift of Easter even after the holiday has passed.

Easter is a unique holiday because its lead-up is often difficult. Whether we’re abstaining from a specific pleasure or bad habit for Lent or participating in church services that remind us of the suffering Jesus experienced, our excitement is saved for Easter morning. 

Do you still find yourself experiencing post-holiday blues? It’s a strange phenomenon when the meaning of Easter is meant to be carried with us each and every day. I’ve found myself frustrated time and again when my awe and gratitude for Jesus’ sacrifice becomes muddled throughout the year. 

How can we best honor Jesus’ death and resurrection when the Easter service concludes and loved ones head home? 

Besides being intentional about spending time with Jesus each day and embracing others with His love, here are a few more specific ideas for honoring Easter after the festivities are over.

Read Through One Gospel Each Season

There are four gospels and four seasons — how convenient! You can certainly choose the order in which you want to read them, but one example is reading John in the winter, Matthew in the spring, Mark in the summer, and Luke in the fall. This keeps Jesus’ ministry, teachings, and sacrifice present in your mind throughout the whole year, not just during the holidays.

Keep a Gratitude Log

You could get really creative with this. Consider decorating a jar, journal, or box and writing something specific you are grateful for every day to put inside. Constantly in the Bible, we are commanded to remember all God has done for us. This is one of the many wonderful ways to praise Him!

Memorize an Easter Verse

To be honest, I’m not the best at Bible memorization, but there is something beautiful and authentic about learning a verse word-for-word to recall when times are tough and we need to be reminded of Jesus’ promises. Here are a few suggestions of verses to memorize, though you should choose a verse that particularly resonates with you!

  • “Jesus said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life. The one who believes in me will live, even though they die.” (John 11:25)
  • “Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! According to his great mercy, he has caused us to be born again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead.” (1 Peter 1:3)
  • “If the Spirit of him who raised Jesus from the dead dwells in you, he who raised Christ Jesus from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through his Spirit who dwells in you.” (Romans 8:11)
  • “The angel said to the women, ‘Do not be afraid, for I know that you are looking for Jesus, who was crucified. He is not here; he has risen, just as he said. Come and see the place where he lay.’” (Matthew 28:5-6)
  • “‘He himself bore our sins’ in his body on the cross, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness; ‘by his wounds you have been healed.’” (1 Peter 2:24)

Volunteer for Those in Need

The love we receive from Jesus is meant to be shared. Serving others, whether through church, a humanitarian organization, or in organic relationships, brings such joy to not only us, but Jesus. Needs can vary, whether they are physical, emotional, or spiritual. Don’t discount someone God is calling you to serve just because they don’t fit your perception of being “in need”. Whoever you are helping, if you do with the love of Christ, your gifts and time will not be wasted.

Acknowledge Jesus’ Gift of Life in Prayer

Do you have a typical format in which you pray? Regardless of how structured or unstructured your prayer time usually is, consider being intentional to thank Jesus for saving you and offering you a life with Him. We often get caught up in asking Jesus to bless others or meet our needs, which is important. But we will experience greater peace when we remember that He’s already met our greatest need with His love.

I hope this Easter is particularly meaningful for you! Remember, Jesus loves you so much and He is ready to walk alongside you as you grow to trust in Him.

 On the evening of that first day of the week, when the disciples were together, with the doors locked for fear of the Jewish leaders, Jesus came and stood among them and said, “Peace be with you!”

After he said this, he showed them his hands and side. The disciples were overjoyed when they saw the Lord.

Again Jesus said, “Peace be with you! As the Father has sent me, I am sending you.”

John 20:19-21

Our Stories Matter

Listen to wisdom and encouragement from four of my friends and take comfort in knowing your story can inspire others too.

Earlier this month, I had the immense pleasure of interviewing four close friends of mine who have inspired me in their walk with Jesus. Hearing one another’s stories reminds us that we aren’t alone in what we are going through. As the body of Christ, we are meant to lift each other up. Often its through our words and listening that we best show others we care.

Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ.

Galatians 6:2

Below are a few quotes from my amazing sisters in Christ featured in this video. I hope it encourages and inspires you to hold onto the hope that Jesus will use your story. No story is too messy or complicated to be used by Him. In fact, when we are vulnerable and honest about our stories, others will witness Jesus’ genuine and authentic love.

“There is always hope.”

~ Dorothy

“Being surrounded by people who share the same faith in Jesus…points me to His hope when I can’t see it myself.”

~ Charlotte

“Resilience…reminds me of a cord being able to hold something or withstand something for a long period of time.”

~ Ruthie

“Giving everything to [God] is definitely one of my anchors.”

~ Ashley

The Beauty of Insignificant Work

Who are we serving when we show others kindness and love, even in the smallest of ways?

There’s no blow quite as resonant as learning someone doesn’t remember you.

Running into an old acquaintance and hearing them say, “Um…what’s your name again?” Bumping into a kid you taught for five years in Sunday school or a beloved childhood friend who stares blankly back at you as you recount fond memories with them. I’m sure you can think of your own example.

When we are forgotten, we wonder if our kind actions toward these people had any significance, any lasting impact. We were designed to crave purpose.

We like to pretend that we don’t deem certain work insignificant. But come on, if someone told you they spent a summer rebuilding a children’s home in an needy area versus playing with toddlers in your church’s nursery, your reactions would differ based on allocated significance for each activity.

Our tendency to rank our charitable acts, hopefully acts that stem from our love for God and His people, has its roots in comparison. We enjoy volunteering to babysit for the single parent next door until we learn our friend is traveling abroad to minister to hundreds of students on the brink of accepting Christ.

The final nail in the coffin is realizing the people we are impacting, even if we can count the number of them on one hand, may not even remember us. Does our service mean nothing?

Well, yes. It does mean nothing.

It means nothing if the reason why you are serving is to be remembered or feel significant, regardless of what you are doing. The what really isn’t important. It’s the why that counts.

I know that sounds incredibly cliché, but hear me out. We have no meaning without Christ, our Creator, who has redeemed us through His own sacrifice on the cross. Through His resurrection and the gift of the Holy Spirit, we are given the opportunity to powerfully impact others.

Understand this (read it a few times if you need to): The only reason why we are able to make a difference is because of Jesus living inside us.

Anyone can do good works. A neighbor who has never met Jesus can cook you a spectacular meal after a terrible day or comfort you after the loss of a loved one. A stranger can plan a community-wide event that helps kids have a safe place to play. And no doubt, these works are wonderful. But they do not have the potential to be miraculous because they are not done out of a heart for God.

The beauty of insignificant work is its innate humility. When we botch up sharing our testimony to the youth group, but have a teen come up later and reveal how it inspired them, we know that only God could’ve used our words in this way. When we serve children who are too young to remember our time with them, but later watch them grow up with a solid understanding of God’s love for them, we trust that God was working even in the forgettable moments.

All works that point to Christ are used to transform lives, even if we can’t see it at the time. Some of us plant the seeds, others of us water them, but God is the one who created the seeds that bloom into fruitful plants. We are merely God’s workers, which is a relief because when we feel burdened by others’ problems, we can hand those burdens directly to God.

God is the best boss you could ever have. He doesn’t ever give you busywork or send you off to fetch His coffee. Every calling He places on our hearts is meaningful. He is not the one who suggests “smaller” deeds are insignificant. So what right do we have to call His work insignificant?

Today, keep your eyes open to the Spirit’s nudges on your heart. Remember that everything you do for Jesus is significant. Even if others can’t recall the kindness you’ve shown them, Jesus sees you and knows everything. Therefore, nothing we do out of His love is in vain.

 What, after all, is Apollos? And what is Paul? Only servants, through whom you came to believe—as the Lord has assigned to each his task. I planted the seed, Apollos watered it, but God has been making it grow. So neither the one who plants nor the one who waters is anything, but only God, who makes things grow. The one who plants and the one who waters have one purpose, and they will each be rewarded according to their own labor. For we are co-workers in God’s service; you are God’s field, God’s building.

1 Corinthians 3:5-9

Let Your Will Be Done

Do you long to surrender your life to God, but you aren’t sure where to start?

If you’ve been a follower of Christ for a while, you’ve likely wondered what decisions God wants you to make. Certain decisions are quite clear in the Bible: do not steal, do not murder, do not commit adultery. But other decisions, the specific ones that may lead to two good outcomes, are difficult to determine.

I’m not sure where you are on your journey. Perhaps you are just entering the job market or anticipating retirement. Maybe you have been single your whole life or you are in a serious relationship. You could be figuring out where to move or when to have kids or who to stay close with as you enter a new season of life.

As for me, I’m wrapping up my second-to-last quarter of college and trying to figure out where God wants me next. Does He want me to find a full-time job related to my major? Would He rather have me pursue another degree? Should I try exploring a different career path entirely?

A piece of advice I received related to this conundrum has stuck with me:

Acknowledge your desires, then surrender them to God.

While this advice felt solid and biblical, I wasn’t quite sure how to surrender to God. I was left with a list of all the things I wanted and a burning feeling of guilt for holding onto them.

If you are in a similar place, I assure you that you shouldn’t feel guilty for wanting things, especially things that God desires for you, such as joy, purpose, community, and love. I assumed that the surrendering process would be significant and perhaps even physical, and while it is significant and can lead to physical actions over time, the surrendering process may actually feel quite gradual.

The best person to learn from in any situation is Jesus. When crucifixion loomed overhead, He drew near to God in prayer.

36 Then Jesus went with his disciples to a place called Gethsemane, and he said to them, “Sit here while I go over there and pray.” 37 He took Peter and the two sons of Zebedee along with him, and he began to be sorrowful and troubled. 38 Then he said to them, “My soul is overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death. Stay here and keep watch with me.”

39 Going a little farther, he fell with his face to the ground and prayed, “My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will.

Matthew 26: 36-39

Jesus didn’t deny what He wanted, but He surrendered His will to God through prayer. Sometimes, we can feel distant from God because we are afraid of telling Him what we want. We are ashamed that we have desires that haven’t been met yet. Perhaps it even seems symbolic of a lack of faith.

The pendulum can swing the other way, too. We fall into the temptation of treating God as Santa Claus, demanding what we want and feeling utterly disappointed and hopeless when He doesn’t deliver in the way we wanted.

Jesus’ model is the perfect approach to take to prevent distance and disappointment. Come to God honestly with all of your feelings and hopes and dreams. This reveals great faith and vulnerability. Admit what you long for and what weighs heavily on your heart. Then ask for God’s will to be done no matter what and pray for peace in any outcome.

You may not see instant results the first time you pray (though I hope you are filled with peace). But if you continue this practice day after day, you may find yourself shedding your old perspective and embracing one of hope and anticipation for all the amazing things God has in store for you.

If you find yourself desiring things that don’t align with God’s will, ask Him for help in this process. Slowly, but certainly, you will find yourself eager for what God has planned for you. And when you face fear, sadness, or chaos, you will always know to whom you can turn. Your loving Creator, the one who knows you best.

For he chose us in him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in his sight. In love he predestined us for adoption to sonship[c] through Jesus Christ, in accordance with his pleasure and will— to the praise of his glorious grace, which he has freely given us in the One he loves. In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God’s grace that he lavished on us. With all wisdom and understanding, he made known to us the mystery of his will according to his good pleasure, which he purposed in Christ, 10 to be put into effect when the times reach their fulfillment—to bring unity to all things in heaven and on earth under Christ.

Ephesians 1:4-10

Life at Different Speeds

Do you feel frustrated by the pace of your progress?

Sloths typically live between 20-30 years, sleep 15-20 hours a day, and move at such a slow pace that algae grows on their backs1. Over the course of their lives, they may be able to travel across 100 trees. Meanwhile, butterflies typically live for only a couple of weeks – months at the most. Yet they make the most of their time! Monarch butterflies travel 50-100 miles per day2

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We all move at different paces, too. Some of us enjoy busy schedules, social gatherings, and constant movement. Others of us function best after taking the time to rest and process, appreciating the quieter moments of each day. 

These differences go beyond personality as well. Some people seem to be on the fast track to success, whether it be worldly success or relationship development or spiritual transformation. Those of us who are late bloomers may feel frustrated that we’ve been working on the same thing for longer with less to show for it.

Humans are judged differently than animals. If you were to go up to a sloth and demand that it move faster, you would look silly. Similarly, if you were to tell a butterfly to slow down and smell the roses, you would also seem ridiculous. We have accepted that animals were created intentionally and uniquely. They have been functioning this way for thousands of years, and it’s only human interference that disrupts their life cycle. Thus, who are we to criticize their way of life?

However, we often feel inclined to question human growth rates, especially our own. Why didn’t we get into the same college as our friends? Why don’t we know which career path to take? Why haven’t we been promoted? When will we finally meet “the one” for us? How long until we become as successful or significant as the person beside us?

The questions shift through each stage of life, yet they are all rooted in our broken understanding of identity. God created us with unique gifts and personalities that benefit others. While we are meant to become more like Him the longer we walk in faith, we will also develop into one-of-a-kind creations. When we lose our broken understanding of who the world tells us we are, we can embrace the beautiful identity God designed for us.

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There are benefits to our individuality, just as there are for sloths and butterflies traveling at their own paces. Sloths are able to camouflage due to the algae that develops from their slow speed, which protects them from predators. Butterflies’ migration patterns gives us a sign of how our ecosystem is doing, while also providing us hope and encouragement with their beauty3

We may never know why life is moving at the rate it is right now or why it’s taking a different shape than we had imagined. However, we can always trust that with God in control, we will end up where we need to be in good time.

Today, breathe and rest in God’s presence, like sloths. And also keep an eye out for opportunities God offers you to bless others, like butterflies. No matter who you are, you were created intentionally and designed with a unique purpose that’s meant to be shared with the world.

Now about the gifts of the Spirit, brothers and sisters, I do not want you to be uninformed.

There are different kinds of gifts, but the same Spirit distributes them. There are different kinds of service, but the same Lord. There are different kinds of working, but in all of them and in everyone it is the same God at work.

1 Corinthians 12:1, 4-6
  1. Sloths: The World’s Slowest Mammels ↩︎
  2. Monarch Butterflies ↩︎
  3. Why Butterflies Matter ↩︎

When Nothing Gets Better

Hope for when hardships don’t cease.

I had a more “poised” post planned out for today, but I’m going to be real with you. I’ve had a really difficult past few weeks and every time it seemed like things were improving, something else happened to make it worse. There were moments when staying in bed or zoning out behind a screen seemed safer than continuing on with my day.

Maybe you’re in a similar boat right now or perhaps you can recall a time when you were stuck in a negative cycle. I believe God wants us to express our emotions and be honest about them, but I don’t think He wants us to stop there.

I don’t have all the answers for why life is difficult or when your problems will be solved. We live in a broken world which will remain imperfect until Jesus comes again.

But I have been reminded again of our need to cling to the truth that there is always beauty to be found and we are not alone in our struggles. Here is my process of overcoming ongoing obstacles, which I hope resonates with you too.

Acknowledge the Pain

You are not a failure or overly sensitive for admitting when you are struggling. In fact, when we distract ourselves or pretend like everything is okay, we are depriving ourselves of deeper healing. Allow yourself to feel your emotions and share them, whether with a trustworthy loved one or in a diary, and especially with God.

Admit to God Your Humanness

Difficult times can draw us closer to God. He is here for you and wants you to call out to Him in all seasons. Admit that you can’t do this alone and ask for His steady hand to guide you through.

Reflect on Previous Trials and Restoration

This likely isn’t the first storm you’ve encountered. Remember a time when you thought nothing would improve and take notice of how this mindset shifted. Can you see God at work in that situation? What did you learn from that trial? Is there anything you can use from that experience to help you through this one?

Read God’s Promises for Your Life

Though we live in a broken world, God still created us with intention and love. Therefore, we can experience joy and fulfillment while living into the calling He has for us. Open your Bible and read passages that bring you hope. Notice passages about Bible characters who faced difficulties, but relied on God for strength. What got them through their battles? God never changes. He will help you, even if His response shows up in unexpected ways.

Do Something You Enjoy

While this step isn’t meant to be an escape from real life, taking time to have fun and focus on other aspects of our lives can help us process and release our pain. You are worth moments of rest and enjoyment.

Allow Yourself to Embrace Newness

Life might look different for you right now, but that doesn’t mean you have to freeze and wait for everything to be over. You can live out your God-given calling right now, even as you hope for better days. We may avoid embracing newness because it means we have to keep moving forward, but it also means we won’t be stuck in this season forever. Things will get better, one step at a time.

I hope and pray that you know how much you are loved. No matter what, God is with you and fighting for you. Don’t give up. ❤

Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.

Romans 5:3-5

I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in his holy people, 19 and his incomparably great power for us who believe. That power is the same as the mighty strength 20 he exerted when he raised Christ from the dead and seated him at his right hand in the heavenly realms, 21 far above all rule and authority, power and dominion, and every name that is invoked, not only in the present age but also in the one to come. 22 And God placed all things under his feet and appointed him to be head over everything for the church, 23 which is his body, the fullness of him who fills everything in every way.

Ephesians 1:18-23

The Incredible Reality of Unconditional Love

How does embracing God’s unconditional love for us change the trajectory of our lives forever?

Evangelical churches are often characterized in the media for stirring souls toward salvation with sermons about damnation and fiery flames. Even in small group discipling conversations, the emphasis is often on gaining eternal life rather than the earthly benefits of following Jesus. While eternal life certainly lasts longer than our time on Earth, it isn’t the only – or perhaps even most important – aspect of a relationship with God. 

When we love Jesus, we will obey – or at least do our best to obey – His teachings (John 14:15). And what is Jesus’ number one command? 

“Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind’; and, ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.”

Luke 10:37

You know how spending time with someone, even someone completely different from you, can cause you to pick up their mannerisms and understand their perspective? The same is true of a relationship with Jesus. If you spend the rest of your life with Him, even when your growth feels slow, you are becoming more like Him. Your heart softens as it fills with His love and pours out on those around you.

You will find yourself naturally seeking out the interests of others above your own. You will crave honest and authentic relationships. You will pause before making major decisions and seek godly counsel. Even if your life looks more difficult and your faith causes you to make sacrificial choices, you will be filled with joy and the strength to keep going. And on the rough days, when you feel alone or defeated, you won’t stay stuck in those emotions because you have someone who loves you unconditionally to whom you can call. 

When you approach someone without faith and explain that they should submit their life to Christ in order to be more kind and selfless, you may unintentionally come off as selfish. It’s like saying, “I just want you to be saved so that you treat me better.” In truth, they are the one who suffers the most from not having a relationship with Jesus. 

The longer they try to do life without unconditional love, the harder their hearts will become. They turn inward for assurance and comfort and love, but they won’t find it there, no matter how desperately they search. Empty and defeated, they will invest in outward sources, whether it be relationships, wealth, physical health, or even humanitarian work.

While those sources may provide immediate comfort, they won’t sustainably meet their deeper needs. People come and go. The economy collapses. Illness hits. Causes and campaigns, even the most noble of them, fade out of relevance eventually. Or enthusiasm for them does when they try to take on the burdens of the world without God’s strength and comfort.

Naturally, when all else fails, they turn back to themselves, realizing they are all they have left. The world encourages us to pump ourselves up with motivational mantras: “You are special”, “You are worthy”, “You are loved”. But when these phrases come from ourselves, they don’t mean anything. We have been designed to need validation from an outside source. Sadly, we often turn to people who don’t have the capacity to love us fully 100% of the time.

But here is where God reenters the picture, though He’s been waiting there the whole time. He wants to take us by the hand and say, “My child, I have always loved you. I know you better than you know yourself. Give up the lie that anything other than my love will sustain you. Come, follow me.”

This path won’t be easy, but it will be lined with grace. All of these things that you’ve craved for your whole life, whether it be purpose or love or hope, can be found in a relationship with God. 

How is God calling you today? If you close your eyes and reflect, how can you see Him working in your life to help you grow in love and selflessness? 

Because of His love and redemption, you are special, worthy, and loved. Even as believers, we can struggle to remember this when our thoughts tell us otherwise. Today, are you ready to accept this incredible reality?

Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.

1 John 4:8

But whoever loves God is known by God.

1 Corinthians 8:3

Love Shatters Everything

Are you willing to embrace radical change through Jesus’ love?

My dad always used to begin his day drinking hot tea in a glass mug. Sometimes, I’d tiptoe downstairs and watch him sort through paper ads, snipping and trimming deals, calmly sipping. Then one morning – CRASH. He had chosen to drink cold soda in his glass, hot out of the dishwasher. I flew down the stairs. Bits of glass sprayed across the kitchen. 

A few years later, long after the mug had been thrown away, I learned that certain artists comb the beach in search of sea glass. Sea glass originates as a useless shard of trash, but through years of physical and chemical weathering from salt water, it can become a lovely piece of frosted glass utilized by artists.

Chaos ensues whenever glass breaks. There’s usually screaming: “Be careful! How did this happen? Watch out! Bare toes!”. It’s impossible to break glass without anyone within earshot noticing. It cannot be done in a pretty or gentle way. But it can turn out beautiful.

Change is a lot like this. We often say we want to change – though grow or develop are favorable euphemisms. But change causes chaos. We must ask ourselves, “Are we willing to embrace chaos if it means we can become more like Christ?”.

Change isn’t comfy-cozy. It’s disruptive and provocative. It requires us to shed a layer of skin, becoming vulnerable and authentic. As we change, people will notice. Some like it; others don’t. 

Take boundaries, for instance. Boundaries allow us to refrain from enabling others, live restful and balanced lives, and prioritize authenticity over pleasing people and avoiding conflict. However, the recipient of our boundaries may be surprised and disappointed when we aren’t so accommodating anymore.

Setting boundaries is actually an excellent test of whether the other person in the relationship is in it for their personal gain or because they truly care. If they suddenly don’t want to be in contact anymore, you may have to ask yourself whether they were a real friend or not. Boundaries give us the freedom to invest in healthy relationships and release the toxic ones.

Of course, we must do everything out of love, including how we set boundaries and interact with difficult people. Love isn’t always, or even often, comfortable. Jesus is love and love is radical. If it can change a man from being a killer of Christians into a renowned teacher of God’s truth and love even thousands of years after his death (ahem, Paul), then love can truly redeem the hardest of hearts. But it requires sacrifice. 

You will face hard choices and be nudged out of your comfort zone when you choose to love as Jesus loves. But love is what changes everything. It reminds us of our desperate need for a Savior and it binds us together by grace.

If we aren’t willing to embrace change, then what are we even doing here? Think of your walk with Jesus as you would a friendship. When you first become friends with someone, you are strangers and can enjoy a surface-level relationship for a time. But if you only maintain this level of friendship, you’ll never feel satisfied or known, or most of all, loved. 

As we get to know Jesus, His love for us will fill our hearts and overflow out of us. This love can change us no matter how far gone we feel and impact others who are hurting and broken. 

Today, I challenge you to ask God how He wants you to grow. He will give you the strength to embrace positive change when you ask for His help. You aren’t meant to do this alone, and thankfully, you don’t have to. God’s Spirit dwells within you, ready to comfort you and inspire you to become more like Christ.

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!

2 Corinthians 5:17

Hope is Not a Fantasy

Inspirational singer-songwriter, Meyta, shares the redemption story behind his new album, Reverse Psychology.

“I’ve always had the instinct to create this album,” singer-songwriter Meyta recalls, referring to his newly released Reverse Psychology. “I just didn’t have the skills to create it. Then as time progressed, I thought, ‘Oh, finally, I can make this thing’.”

But then two years ago, God prompted Meyta to take a break from music. That’s not a message most artists want to hear, especially when they have the pressing desire to produce a specific album, as Meyta had. It required significant faith and trust to leave his music career in God’s hands, but after clinging to God on what, at times, was a perilous journey toward healing, he knew God would prove Himself faithful.

True to God’s character, Meyta’s year off wasn’t wasted. In fact, the growth Meyta experienced during this break was what prepared him for bringing his dream to life – Reverse Psychology.

“During that time, I got a lot of inner healing in my soul of things that I didn’t even realize I was dealing with,” he shares. “At the end of the year, the Lord spoke to me and said, ‘You’re ready’. A week later, I was contacted by my (now) manager.”

Though this album presents an exciting new step in Meyta’s artistic journey, his passion for music existed even before he devoted his life to Christ. 

Meyta’s music career started about eight years ago. As his talents developed, he created the stage name “Meyta”, which means purpose. Even while an agnostic, he perceived that people suffering from mental illness felt worthless because they didn’t understand that they had a purpose in life. Ironically, he was questioning his own purpose at the time, which led to an accidental overdose that caused him to be temporarily paralyzed and hear demonic voices. 

“I decided to call out to Jesus and the demons’ voices left and I wasn’t paralyzed anymore,” he says. “I began to realize that my purpose was actually just to be best friends with God. That’s when I started making music for Him.”

In order to write this album, Meyta reflected on his mindset during his most vulnerable season. Through the peace and healing Jesus has brought him over the four years since his overdose, he’s able to revisit that pain with compassion and insight, allowing him to encourage others through his story. 

Recently, Jesus has put a specific phrase in Meyta’s mind: hope is not a fantasy. In fact, anyone can have hope and healing when they place their faith in Jesus. While Meyta’s music is centered on mental health, and he approaches deep subject matters with grace and empathy, his message is counter-cultural in that he believes anyone can be made whole again through Jesus.

There is profound comfort found in the lyrics of Meyta’s songs, such as in “You are My Child”, in which a person approaches God with shame, and God counteracts his doubts: “You are my child / I will always love you / I will never forsake you”.

But Meyta also recognizes that accepting the truth of God’s love can be a challenge, especially when lies fill our minds. “Choose to Live” depicts the struggle of someone grappling with overwhelming brokenness: “Right now I’m defeated, and broken within / And I’m convinced I won’t be happy again”.

“A lot of artists tell (their listeners) to stay in those emotions,” Meyta explains. “The challenge is that there really is hope. You don’t have to be stuck in those emotions.” 

Hope and purpose are intermingled for Meyta and they are rooted in one source: Jesus.

“When I gave my life to Jesus, I realized that He’s been waiting to heal me from my deep depression and my deep anxiety,” he says. “I would wake up and I’d just start laughing because I realized I’d been lied to. I didn’t realize that I could have hope. I was just laughing out of joy.”

“Choose to Live” continues with the speaker remembering that hope comes in the morning, as it did for Meyta: “But I know in the morning my mind will change / My life has value / So I choose to live”.

To those who feel discouraged or doubtful of Jesus’ loving purpose for them, Meyta turns to his own redemption story as proof of Jesus’ mercy.

“If He’s able to take a boy that’s depressed out of his mind and trying to escape through everything…(and) I was really at the point of giving up,” he says. “If He was able to give me hope for the first time ever, then He’s able to really flip around anyone’s life.”

As Christians, we are called to share our hope with those around us. Meyta believes that living out our callings, using whatever unique gifts God has given us, is one way to encourage others. Another is to be intentional about our relationships and share how God has changed us.

Meyta’s genuine care and concern for his listeners is evident in his future goals as a musician, particularly with considering the possibility of touring.

“Being able to look those people in the eye – that’s what excites me,” he says with a smile.

Though the journey has been painful, confusing, and even near-death, Meyta trusts that he wouldn’t have grown into the person he is today, both as a musician and follower of Jesus, without these experiences. 

As an artist, he’s had to overcome comparison, competition, and feeling insignificant. He wants others struggling with these issues to realize that believing their turn will never come is a lie. Life will unfold in beautiful and surprising ways when we switch our mindsets away from our personal goals and instead ask God to speak into our lives.

“Who am I to compare myself to someone’s chapter twenty when I’m at chapter ten?” he adds.

After trial and error, taking a year off from producing music, and embracing much personal healing, Meyta is proud to finally unveil Reverse Psychology, which embodies his own coming-of-age story of finding hope. His favorite song in his album is “All You’ve Ever Known”.

“All You’ve Ever Known” encapsulates the heart of Reverse Psychology, which is the transformation from being deceived by the cheap offerings of this world to embarking on a quest for truth and purpose, ultimately found in God’s love. Though “All You’ve Ever Known” focuses on facing harsh realities, it’s also singed with promise as the speaker fervently pursues the belief that there is more to life than suffering.

“That song means so much to me. I love how it’s kind of ambiguous for people to figure out for themselves,” Meyta says. “Every time I listen to it, it means something different to me.”

Meyta hopes that listeners will not only enjoy his music and be moved by his personal story, but also identify with the lyrics for themselves. And most of all, Meyta calls us to remember that hope is within reach when we least expect it as long as we don’t give up.

Find Meyta’s music on your favorite music-streaming platform: Reverse Psychology

Follow Meyta on Instagram: @wehavemeyta

We know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.

Romans 5:3-5 (NIV)