Second Thoughts

I thought I made the right choice.

But sitting at my desk, head in my hands, tears streaming down my face, I wasn’t so sure anymore.

Backtrack one year prior, when I was pouring over my college applications, I felt God’s hand over the entire process. I was certain the college I chose was the one. I had little to no doubt that this was the career path for me.

But adjusting to a life so different from the one I’ve led for most of my life has been difficult. There are so many changes, so many unpleasant and uncomfortable things. I know I’m not the only one questioning my decision making skills.

Perhaps you are in a similar predicament. Maybe you made a thoughtful choice, but now you aren’t reaping any rewards. Or you thought that this change would finally be the key to turning your life around, yet things are looking all too familiar out your window.

Whatever you’re going through, I want you to remember something: God doesn’t change. If we listen Him and we follow His call, He doesn’t just say, “Oh never mind, my bad, you were actually supposed to do this instead. Whoops.”

No, God never makes mistakes. He didn’t make a mistake when He made you. He also didn’t make a mistake when He led you to whatever path you’re on right now.

You know how they say doubts aren’t actually a bad thing? In fact, asking those deeper questions that come with our doubts can actually strengthen our faith. Well, what if second thoughts regarding your decisions aren’t actually bad?

What if, instead of suffering from regret, you use these uncomfortable feelings to learn more about yourself. What about this situation do you want to change? Why are you unhappy about your circumstances? How can you still find rest when your world is shaking? Can you see how God is working through this, or do you need to pray to ask Him to show you His plan?

Just because you’re having second thoughts doesn’t mean you made the wrong choice. That’s just as true of doubts about your faith. Just because you have doubts doesn’t mean you don’t have faith anymore.

You do have the ability to listen to God. You do have the capability to make good decisions. You are strong in your faith.

And anything that tells you that your life is a mistake is wrong. It’s a lie from the enemy.

Today, have hope in that no matter what you’re going through, God is right there beside you. He knows what will happen and He will take care of you. Someday, everything will come together, even if it’s not on this side of Heaven. So for now, just take life one step at a time and remember that you are not in this alone.

Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, “This is the way; walk in it.”

Isaiah 30:21

But when he, the Spirit of truth, comes, he will guide you into all the truth. He will not speak on his own; he will speak only what he hears, and he will tell you what is yet to come.

John 16:13

Also, happy 2 year anniversary to this blog! I’m a little late (it was September 21st), and I plan to do a post related to it later. So thankful for all of you!